The Things That Matter (& the things that don't)

What Matters: I am getting married in 58 days to this person I never actually believed existed. I wasn't ever sure if I believe in the one, nor will my rational mind agree with the idea. What I do know is that all of those things that I ever wanted, that I ever needed, even the "imperfections" and needs: they are contained in this one person. It's the craziest thing I've ever experienced - and I've been through a lot in my life. Once or twice I've let myself ask, "is this for real? What if...?" But I don't come up with actual concerns. I know it seems irrational from some perspectives, but here it is. I'm marrying this guy I haven't even known for a year. Younger Me would refuse to believe it. I refuse to let Younger Me, with her artificial rules and all too cautious self reign. This is so, so good. When you stumble across something so good, you can't help but run towards it. Run, don't walk!

What Matters: Trying, with all my might, to finish out this graduate school career successfully. Collecting all my knowledge and information to the corners of my mind so I can logically get it all out in an understandable fashion. Doing the best I can, and letting life take care of the rest.

What Doesn't Matter: In the long run, whether I get my degree won't matter. I've done the work. I've learned. I've grown. It would be a nice accomplishment. I'd love to prove it all with a piece of paper and a couple of initials. I will be so relieved-happy-excited to do it (if I do). But it doesn't actually matter. I will be me without those initials. Not having them won't suddenly take away what I've gained from the experience.
And I kind of kick ass, even without the initials.

What Matters: Sharing our wedding with loved ones. Being blessed and supported by our community, near and far. That's what a wedding is in my book.

What Doesn't Matter: What I'm wearing. Or what you're wearing.
(although, for the record, I'm happy with what I'm wearing, and I can't wait to see your in yours)

What Matters: That we hug and smile and share love.