I've been thinking a lot, lately. Actually, I've been "thinking" a lot for a long, long time. For one thing, it's hard for me to shut my brain off and just be present in the moment. I know I should, and I know it's important and I try. But just realize, it's there. But also, I've been so overwhelmingly busy, lately, that I haven't had much space for personal thinking. So now that I've checked "graduate school" (note: my "thinking" self noticed the irony of that statement when I wrote it, that it can be read multiple ways - as in "to graduate from school" and "finish graduate school". Anyway.). Now that that's off my list, along with "move to Asheville" (which has been on my list for longer than graduate school, actually), I'm finding mind-space for other important things (instead of it all being taken up with "do this, do that, get to the meeting, figure out how to function..." I've not caught up with myself yet (see: realized in bed last night that I've not mailed Jimbo's birthday present yet, hence, it won't be there in time for his birthday - sorry bro, my bad). But I've also been experiencing some awesome things lately (See also: break into grin when a 1985 gray Pontiac drives by with lime green flames painted from the front).
Things with Windtalker are so awesome. We're busy and crushed for time and space right now, but amid all that I made him a pretty killer birthday present. It's something I thought of this past summer, so it involved digging back into my notes from this summer. I was reminded of all the awesome times and things we've had, and I also realized that some day, I'm sure, I'll have forgotten them again, and need reminding when I'm frustrated or otherwise crushed. I need to collect these bits and save them up so I can pull out my Windtalker-is-Awesome box and smile to myself when I'd kind of like to strangle him or cry.
Perhaps because of all that deep-thought, I've also been thinking on things in general. Yesterday I was driving around, running errands, and saw one of those overpasses that says, "I love you more than trees" (if you're not from around here, they're around. It's a thing.) I thought to myself, "I should take a picture of that for Windtalker so he can see it and be reminded to smile when he'd like to strangle me for being a tad frustrating." Or I'll hear a story on NPR and want to store it away to tell him, and let him know of all the times and things I think about him during the day.
I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm also still quite busy, and not doing too well at getting all of these things committed to writing, yet. I have so much to say I get sort of stunned and unsure of where to start. But I'm thinking again. And that's pretty awesome.
Now, about those wedding-tasks I'd like to accomplish, and the unpacking that needs to happen so we can sit at the table for dinner, and the work that needs to be underway before I'm out of the office for two weeks...
Things with Windtalker are so awesome. We're busy and crushed for time and space right now, but amid all that I made him a pretty killer birthday present. It's something I thought of this past summer, so it involved digging back into my notes from this summer. I was reminded of all the awesome times and things we've had, and I also realized that some day, I'm sure, I'll have forgotten them again, and need reminding when I'm frustrated or otherwise crushed. I need to collect these bits and save them up so I can pull out my Windtalker-is-Awesome box and smile to myself when I'd kind of like to strangle him or cry.
Perhaps because of all that deep-thought, I've also been thinking on things in general. Yesterday I was driving around, running errands, and saw one of those overpasses that says, "I love you more than trees" (if you're not from around here, they're around. It's a thing.) I thought to myself, "I should take a picture of that for Windtalker so he can see it and be reminded to smile when he'd like to strangle me for being a tad frustrating." Or I'll hear a story on NPR and want to store it away to tell him, and let him know of all the times and things I think about him during the day.
I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm also still quite busy, and not doing too well at getting all of these things committed to writing, yet. I have so much to say I get sort of stunned and unsure of where to start. But I'm thinking again. And that's pretty awesome.
Now, about those wedding-tasks I'd like to accomplish, and the unpacking that needs to happen so we can sit at the table for dinner, and the work that needs to be underway before I'm out of the office for two weeks...
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